'Musings on the past' or 'my actual high school sweetheart was a bit mental'
When we first met I was dazzled. I couldn't believe that Toronto would be into ME. And, I'll admit it, we had our fights, but I was happy. I grew and changed and drank beer on lots of patios every summer. But three years on, I was getting bored of its cheap restaurants, dive bars, great shops. I started picking fights and talking shit about it. I can't take all the blame. Toronto sometimes tries a bit too hard, its a bit too proud of its achievements and sometimes it's a little arrogant. And let's face it, Toronto's a bit small. Then I met another city. A cold, indifferent city. London. London didn't care about me, but I was convinced I could win its love. So I left Toronto. There were tears, recriminations, second thoughts, but we were over, dammit.
I've been with London for 5 months and I'm still in the honeymoon stage. London frustrates me and sometimes I worry that I might not be good enough. I know I'm not ready to leave.
But I am nostalgic about Toronto and all the good times we had. I find myself wanting to walk certain streets, see familiar graffiti and to just have a good, easy chat. Now I'm quite sure that I won't ever love Toronto like I once did, but I hope that we can still be friends. in the summer, definitely not in the winter.
Oh! Depeche Mode just came on the radio. Talk about ol' times.

3 Comments:
London Darling,
Glad to hear you're so happy with your new city. I mean, I don't really know London all that well, but I'm sure it's a great place. I hope it treats you well.
I think about you often, but I must confess that I've been seeing another million people. You don't know them; they went to another highschool.
Our time together was special, but it was time to move on. I know you've already moved on and I'm a step behind, but I thought you should know anyway.
I'm happy with this new crowd. I think I can really grow as a city with these people.
So, no hard feelings I guess. I'm happy you're happy. If you're ever in Canada and want to talk over coffee, you have my area codes. Look me up anytime.
Gotta run. They're trying to build a bridge to the island again.
Yours,
T-dot
hi Julia,
I hope to see you back here soon, even if for a short visit!
You know what's really crazy? I wrote my Warsaw article in a form of a letter to an ex-flame (my ed wanted the theme to be love-and-hate). I think your entry is way, way better but cool, eh?
Cool.
And your ex-city wrote you back, too!
Jowita
That IS cool, but then we do seem to have similar ideas about things.
(and I somehow doubt that my blog entry was even close to being as good as your article, but thank you)
I reckon I could get Toronto back. It's obvious that its still totally into me!
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